IF YOU HAVE EVER LOST A FRIEND TO SUICIDE A PAIN THAT NEVER GOES AWAY..
RIP LISA"CURLY DREW I MISS YOU EVERYDAY

Curly Drew is what I used to call her Drew, Elisabeth "Lisa" Actress/Model/Dancer former employee of the Alliance Entertainment Group and more important my friend who died Tragically on Saturday November 4, 2006 age 29 years when she decided to take her own life.

The Cherished and precious daughter of Heidi Neal (David) and Les Drew (Morag)Lisa will be sadly missed by her two sisters Jennifer (Serge) and Vanessa, cherished niece Roxy, and fondly remembered by grandparents Susan Leeman, Cay and Orv Neal, aunts, uncles, cousins and friends

Lisa Drew truly was one of those special gifts of god...I was truly blessed to know this woman and as well got the privelage of working with her for so many years and it didnt matter in our extremly busy lives that we may have lost touch but when we did see each other it was like we had only been apart for a day.. I can't accept the fact that your gone for 4yrs now..so I wont and know that I will see you again some day my friend.

Lisa was one of those girls who always stood seperate from everyone else from the first time we ever met .. A model dancer singer,bartender Lisa did it all,I have so many fond memories of her from working with her partying it up the rides to events and go-go dancing together at all the clubs back in the day and it breaks my heart deeply as I was on a the road taking after boarding a plane to get the news of her passing and flew back immediately to attend her funeral.. I still have and will for along time not excpet that fact she is gone ..

I cant let Lisa go,the part of her that lives in my heart. My warm memories of Lisa will be with me all the days of my life, and I will cherish every one of them. They will give me strength when I'm weak and happiness when I'm down. I'll only have to remember your smile, and my hope will be renewed. I'll only have to think about the way your eyes touched something deep inside of me, and I'll remember that the admiration and respect I had for her will bond our souls to another eternally.

I will never ever let the love and friendship go I am so greatful to have shared with her for you,I will always hold u in my heart forerver lisa u were a great friend and i will miss u terribly and I dedicate everyday of reaching the ultimate success in my career to you Lisa I was a better person because of you and I will never let anyone forget you and I carry you in my heart everyday and I will see you again my friend I love you Curly..

I am here for all of you who I have sent this to I share with u that Suicide is no joke...and from personal experience almost reaching that point myself when a certain time in my life I felt so alone attempted the same thing but thanks to a few key people that helped me thru those difficult times and also losing my best friend Josh Hughes who killed himself in front of me back in 94 if things are hard and u feel that u have no answers or need to talk please call me day or night or leave me a msg with your email address and even if im not in the country my close contacts have ways to reach me in case of an emergency...Don't feel embarrassed to talk to someone and open up ..no matter what the sitaution is ..I will never judge I will only listen and give u prespective.

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I DEDICATE THIS VIDEO FROM ON EX DANCER TO ANOTHER THE ONLY WAY YOU COULD DESCRIBE LISA FROM ONE LEGEND TO ANOTHER BABE THIS VIDEO IS FOR YOU LISA YOU WILL FOREVER BE IN ALL OF THE HEARTS OF THE LIVES U TOUCHED.

Alrick Howard Gairy was going to have the world at his fingertips as he prepared to enter his second year of football scholarship at a Michigan University. But the father of a two-year old son 24 at the time and a bouncer at the Guvernment Nightclub on Queens Quay was killed shortly after 2am on Aug 13 2000.

The man who committed the murder Quenton Danvers 19 at the time of Regent Park was under a court order not to have a handgun. Gairy was shot three times in the chest and died shortly before arrival at St Michael's hospital. The handgun to this day still remains missing which either was dropped and picked up or passed of by the accused killer who was held by other security staff for police.

In dedication to Howard Gairy to his family and friends and staff at the Guvernment Night Club who loved this beautiful human being, deal with this tragic loss.

Written by Derrick Ling (Alliance Entertainment C.E.O) (Gone but not Forgotten) Dedicated to my friend and former employee of the Alliance Entertainment.

On Aug. 13 2000, Howard Gairy, a doorman at the Guvernment Night Club, father, and friend who was on his way for his second year into a scholarship for football at Michigan State was gunned down in front of me and was laid to eternal sleep.

As the tears flowed down my eyes my heart aches with a love forever deep. We will all miss you my friend and within time the memories of you shall one day mend our broken hearts.

Even though Howard is gone in physical presence, we have to remember that his "Heart and Soul will live on, in all of us"

To all who knew Howard we all know he was someone special.
If I had one more day to let Howard know that I would tell him that, How Lucky I Am That our paths have met And out of this wide world you chose me to be your friend I would thank him on behalf of all of us and thank him for being there on the rainy days in the sunshine and for loving and accepting all of us just as we are unconditionally. You brought joy to all of us that lights up the day like sun on a spring morning.

Thank you Howard for being our friend.
To most of us who knew this great man or who heard of his accomplishments find this tragedy very unsettling but isn't that how we have all lived our lives?

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Where do I even begin..As Caribana approaches this weekend...I will admit that this weekend I cannot tell you truthfully that I will be in good spirits...Toronto A place I used to say that I loved to do business in work in...I would be lying if I was to tell u that the city even is that anymore..Coming off last Sunday as a few of you who I have spoken to know that I was nearly gunned down as I by chance happened to walk into a gunfight that broke out downtown in the entertainment district that started in a family bbq..Several bullets were sprayed in my direction intended for a few people that were involved in the fight..Luckily no one was hurt but the situation was just to close giving me a reminder on how quickly your life can be taken from u as I approach the 4yr Anniversary of Howard Gairy's Death.

Those who don't remember my friend & co worker who worked for my company was gunned down while we worked together one fateful night Aug 13 2000 at the Guv.

Another black individual who had so much promise a gifted athlete who was on scholarship in Michigan and about to turn pro in football a father of 2 taken far to soon..But this weekend another close person in my life who I have been friends with for over 12yrs was brutally murdered in cold blood which appears to be a targeted hit when he was shot several times in his car.

I cannot put into words how this man....A GREAT GREAT MAN was such a person that I can say I was proud to call my friend.This man is..and some of you may know him as Kool C....which truly was what described him to a tee..He was always calm Kool and collective..Always smiling and always would stop to say hello.just to make someone laugh..He was like me and many ways I think that is why we clicked so well..He never fucked with anyone and was always calm until the things he cared about and the people he cared about were targeted.

He was truly a person that I RESPECTED a great deal and he like myself had a passion for the business I used to love. He was a man you could say that was out there like u and i trying to make a living and not because he needed the money cause he didn't but because of the enjoyment of being around people and love to share his generosity to others by putting on a party..He may have not had a successful run in some events and been as lucky as I have been but he had the one thing that a lot of people in this world do not seem to have anymore was integrity and determination.

Me and him formed a bond from those who have been with me in the early days for me in this business when me and him worked together at Club Fx in Sauga..He helped get me in the connected nitelife in Mississauga when I first started hanging out in that area..Over the years we did some events together..and became friends and even though we were competitors we had a great deal of respect in and outside of buisness..There were times when things got sticky for both of us..and when you are trying to climb over mountains of negativity when you start of in this business there was always people that tried to hurt u in so many ways..This great man was never that kind of person..He had my back and I always had his.

I supported him and he always supported me..cause he was one of the few people in this business left out of a short list of maybe 4 that I can say were left that were truly representing the hard work that the pioneers of the industry had started..But I cannot tell u right now how I feel other than anger because the emotion has not yet hit me because someone u have seen almost every weekend for over 12yrs shared many laughs drinks...we went thru good times and bad times together will no longer be there..and considering how close of a call it was for me last sunday along with so many other times u have to ask yourself I least I do.when's my time...But I am not afraid..I never will be.

I do not have kids like my friends who have died did and that is what burns me inside..and truly I can honestly say whoever did this has no heart and truly did not know the heart of lion that Kool C possesed..I swear as god as my witness I will do whatever I can to help bring whoever did this to justice....but just as all that shit started to settle in..

SaveThirty-three-year-old Farouk Sylvester Musah was an ambitious player in the local entertainment industry, where he was known as Kool ?C?. But friends believe someone began entertaining thoughts of murdering the promoter after a failed reggae concert, and succeeded in meeting their vile objective on Sunday night. That's when Musah's bullet-ridden and lifeless body was discovered in his white Humvee at the Esplanade and Lower Sherbourne St.

An autopsy confirmed he succumbed to multiple gunshot wounds, but there's nothing so far to confirm rumours that Kool ?C? was snuffed out by someone upset about alleged unscrupulous business practices.

An associate who wished to remain anonymous spoke to CityPulse about the swirling suggestions that revenge was the motive. ?A lot of people leaving the venue (were making threats) and also things that we heard backstage about how he allegedly scammed people,? the associate said. ?Some people are getting crazy out there and they take things to the next level and the smallest things sometime now and bullets are going off.?

Kool "C" was one of the main promoters of the Toronto International Reggae Festival which took place at Lamport stadium last month. Hundreds of fans became angered when the headliner didn't perform and some were asking for their money back and threatening to get the promoter.

Detectives won't reveal why they believe he was murdered, but they maintain drugs and gangs don't appear to be a factor.

Musah leaves behind three children, ages 8-and-a-half, five and 16 months.

I'm sure everybody thinks the grass is greener on the other side from time to time. If this or that didn't happen, everything would be perfect.

That's not always the case, as we've seen through the years.
Disappointments and heartaches are a part of life. We don't live in a perfect world. When someone dies way before their time, frustration, sadness and sometimes confusion is all we feel. At least that's how I've been feeling lately.

A friend of mine WWE Superstar Mike "Crash Holly" Lockwood passed away last year near the end of 2003 in Florida.
I first met Crash when he came to guvernment nightclub on a Saturday for Adam Copeland's Birthday a.k.a edge about 4yrs ago in October when one of my best friend's Sean Morley a.k.a Val Venis introduced me.

Me and Mike hit it off instantly as he was a pure joker and was quite the partier.
For those who are WWE Diehards like me and those who followed Crash's Career... you know he wasn't the biggest dog in the yard at like 5 "5 and like just over 210 lbs.But claming he was like 6"6 and weighing in over 400lbs

He was thrown in against some of the toughest veterans on the roster. When the Hardcore Championship began, it seemed that it was Crash who really made the 24/7 rule mean something. He defended it at airport baggage claims, on the streets, in an amusement center -- everywhere Crash went he had his guard up.There was no denying his passion for wrestling and performing. He took pride in being the Hardcore Champ who could also wrestle when called upon to do so. I don't know what happened along the way, but I do know that Crash wasn't pleased when the Hardcore Championship was "abolished.

" He truly felt that he should and would be considered one of the greatest Hardcore Champions of all time. Which in my opinoion He was right.

I had many talks with Crash during his last days in WWE.

He came out with us a couple of times when the WWE were in Town and gave me some good advice and insight as I was training with Sean for the Tough Enough competions just incase I was really serious about looking to make it to the big time. One thing that was evident to me and pretty much most of the guys that I am friends with in the WWE but Mike had a diffrent effect on me.. was the passion and respect with which he talked about the business he loved.

If anyone could preech my lingo about go after your dreams and not letting anyone stop you no matter how small or how much people try to tell you can't He proved that he had what it took for those who watched his character in the ring he would back down from no one..

He would help anyone who asked for it and was always looking for something new to do in the ring.
Crash loved what he did and enjoyed helping others who wanted to learn.

As I write this, I am trying to think of how to say what I want to say. It's never easy when someone dies.I have been down this road it seems to many times in my life..

I prefer to think about the good memories and things Crash did. There are a lot of those. I hope this is the last goodbye to another friend lost

I will write for a while. I also hope the friends and family of Mike Lockwood can find some peace and eventually cope with their loss.

I also hope Mike will finally get a much-deserved rest, peacefully. I'm going to miss him and I am sure all of my friends in the WWE who were close to him will remember the laughs he sure as hell gave me anytime I saw him.

To the Friends and Family of Mike Crash Holly" Lockwood

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Written by D-Teflon RIP CRASH YOU WILL BE MISSED

Death is not an end,
but a journey home.
Someday, you'll be
reunited with your
loved one.
Until then, your loved one
will live on in your heart,
for those we've truly loved
could never be forgotten.
And I hope that the
love you feel will
give you strength
through these difficult times.
Have faith that the sun
will shine again.

Well until next time KEEP ON BOUNCING...and I hope to see you soon one day again Mike...Your Friend Always Derrick

MIAMI (Reuters) - U.S. singer and actress Aaliyah was killed along with eight other people on when a small Cessna passenger plane crashed and burst into flames shortly after taking off from an island in the Bahamas, police and U.S. embassy officials said.

My urge to the Lord Above

Written By Derrick Ling aka D-Teflon
dedicated to the memory of Aaliyah

Take my smile
Take my spring and fall
Take away my wisdom and my thoughts
My Nights and my dawn
Take away my wings my beauty and my glow
and my ether
See if I say a word or moan
but give back the one you stole from us
I urge you Lord if you love me
Free us from this pain
and bring back the joy she brought to our lives with her music and smile
and clean the hurt from our souls

She is Free
Don't grieve for her now she is Free
She is now following the path God Laid for her
He took her hand and he heard her call
She has turned her back and left it all
She could not stay another day
to laugh,to love work or play.
She had to many task left undone and it must stay that way
She has found peace at the close of day
If her parting has left a void with you
then fill it with remembered times of happiness
Be not Burdened with times of Sorrow
Think of Good memories for her when the sunshines tomorrow
Her life was full,and she has savored so much
She had a good family,good times,a loved one's touch many fans around the world
Perhaps her time seemed all to brief
But I'm sure she wouldn't want us to lengthen it with undue grief
Lift up your heart and share with me
God wants her now, THE MEMORIES THROUGH HER MUSIC THAT TOUCHED SO MANY PEOPLE WILL SET US FREE

I Met aaliyah once a few years back at a show and she was definitely and truly lovely girl with so much promise she will be missed by many and our deepest sympathy goes out to her and the other members aboard the plane, family and friends.
She will definitely be missed
Yours Truly Derrick Ling The Alliance Entertainment

Sept 9 2002
On September 11, thousands of
Americans lost their lives to a
senseless and cowardly act of terrorism
and an entire nation mourned.

However, these terrorists
knew nothing about the
American spirit.
They greatly underestimated our
strength, resolve, and bravery.

We've met with disaster,
but we've come together in the midst
of adversity and found strength
through one another.

We refuse to be beaten, bullied,
or weakened by terrorists.

And we are far from helpless.

We will stand together through
this crisis, and we will heal.

We will raise our flag
and let it fly high and victorious
beneath the stars.

And we will emerge stronger
than ever before,
united through our pride,
our compassion,
and our faith in God.

Like myself some Americans want to forget September 11 because of the tragic reminders of losing a loved one but others claim they have
911 battle fatigue.
They close their eyes
and pretend that all
is fine and right
in their pristine world again.
Some Americans say that
the victims should
move on and get over it--
look to the future
and forget that day.
But they can never
get over a day like that
unless they lose the
very heart of their humanity.
Some Americans say they're
tired of whining widows
and the stories of tragedy.
What?
Excuse me?
Please tell me my ears
deceive me.
American's can't be
so cold to
another's suffering.
Some Americans want to
relax and slip back
into the blind comfort
of complacency.
But the world has
changed forever,
and it's up to us
to chart this nation's destiny.
Some Americans have
taken down the flags
that used to fly proudly
along every street.
I guess Lady Liberty
will shed yet another tear
at this transient show
of national unity.
Some Americans have
already forgotten
the lessons of 9-11.
They shoved the day
in a safe and locked
it up tight.
I guess they just
don't know what they've got.
They're patriots only
when the tension is rife.

Please Remember
September 11.
Never forget
those who died,
those who suffered,
those who sacrificed,
those who grieve
and those who are
still struggling
to find their way
out of the darkness.

It wasn't the sun that made
a gray sky blue that day;
it wasn't the wind that carried
the dust and smoke away;
it wasn't the President;
or the congress as a whole,
but the heroes of ground zero
who mended a nation's soul.

God bless America's heroes:
New York's finest,
New York's bravest,
all of the volunteers
and other unsung heroes
who relieved suffering
during the 9-11 tragedy.
I salute you!

For the heroes
who lost their lives
in the terrorist attack on September 11.
There are too many of them to name,
but each one sure has a special place beside God in heaven.
Hundreds of New York's finest and bravest were lost--
paramedics, firefighters, and police officers
who rushed to the scene to save others.

September, 11 was a dark day of tragedy,
but these heroes taught us a lesson about compassion
and love for humanity, that we should all never forget.

Written by Derrick Ling-D-Teflon
Alliance Entertainment 2002